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It had been a hectic year for me.. Schooling & working... no time for myself, family and friends...
Another 5 months ahead to smell 'freedom'! :)
What lies ahead then? Have my plans already, but shall see how then... Other factors to think of...
I had been spending time with my mum these few wks after my exams 2 wks ago :)
Went shopping and spend on my clothes etc.. Been spending these few times on myself. We had good food like teochew seafood restaurant at centrepoint.. It's yummy! Missing the bamboo clam!! <3
Dad had been hospitalized with his usual problem just before my last paper of term 4, checks had been fine,
nothing detected. Mum was guessing probably a slight blockage, hence couldnt detect anything. Parents are really aging day by day.. I hope I can faster graduate, earn enough for them to spend and not work already.
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Life has been stagnant for me... No ups no downs.. no happiness, no sadness, not much drastic feelings within me.
I guess I had been closing myself up, cooping myself at home to have sufficient rest, to work, home to rush assignments, to school.. that's my life for the past 1 yr plus.. Not much interaction with outside world..
Draining...
Been feeling happy for seeing friends whom I know getting their 'life partners to be', some being engaged, some getting married ^-^
It's nice to have someone der for you sharing your happiness and woes.
A person who will actually care and concern to you,
... who will love you for who you are..
... who will pay attention and notice the slight indifference in you...
... whom you can shower all the care and hug the person who you love most..
But.. what's the feeling of love after so long without it..?
- Mood:
indifferent
Friends.. Come and go~
Sometimes we may talk about people's back no matter good or bad. However, no matter what, seriously.. sometimes i wonder actually if we don't even bother that person or what, we won't even talk good or bad things abt the person. I admit sometimes i myself aso will do that.. But i came to realise, if i never bother that person, i won't even say out le. Or actually I am trying to get some thoughts or advices from people too. Now, i realise i am losing the ability to advise or even make judgements... No longer like in the past. Probably, i never go thru much life experiences lately these years apart from juz schooling and working already. Losing confidence in myself... from people telling me my strengths n weaknesses... i'm trying to change to be a better person..
my strengths slowly becoming my weaknesses...
no confidence, overly nice, assumptions, losing my ability to give advices, not so outspoken at times, over-sensitive and zai yi what people say... as i grows... i came to realise... have to take things really easy, or else i will be hard on myself.. and also i'm too scare to lose people whom I treasure a lot.. but when this does not come in mutual ways... things will end up to be not as nice n tiring. I am really contented that I have a handful of friends whom we sincerely treasure n care each other.
No one is ever perfect. Among friends, is all about compromising, give and take, accepting each individuals' imperfections and acceptiong who they are...
No one will know what will happen tomorrow.. so just live happily and treasure those friends who treasure you truely in their hearts. ^-^
- Mood: calm
its been a week of sickness n relaxation! haha :) ever since after exams till last wk, been sick each day.. one sick after another. From flu to sorethroat to fever to migraine than gastric. Finally its over, and "IT" finally came!! :) happy ttm.. movie "Thor" with chris @ JP.. quite a nice show.. weets! polling n den home! Night time was the rally, results etc.. MJ whole night with family :) finally there's time for me with my family. Sunday, it was Mother's Day! Brought mum to have a good feast with dad... Its a little disappointing over the mother's day food @ putien.. However, their specialty for normal menu was really good! :)
Words to my mum..
Always love you mum!
Thanks for being there with me all the time.
You always shower me with care n concern, especially for my health.. You've been worrying...
I hope I can graduate fast, have a new stable good job & support you.. I wanna stop you from working so hard... My heart really hurts seeing you working so hectic-ly day and night.. I'm sorry that I can't help much, all I can do was trying my best to help out here n there whenever I can.. Trying not to go out so often, so to help out at home too..
It's back to normal working life again. Got to start working on my assignments again! :) Got to work hard this term.. A little tough~~Its gonna to be packed for my schedule again!!!
- Mood: cheerful
Seriously what I have studied in this term, does apply in our lives..
Monetary terms really do not let you able to stay in a job for long if 'hygiene' factors like people, environment and work scope are not what you want..
Find a job that you can adapt to the environment and culture...
How long more can I endure here...
I hope to find a better job...
A better pay..
Environment better..
Welfare better den this.. at least same with my first perm job in the bank...
That wil be my ideal! Seriously, the most wrong move I had done was to quit my bank job and go study UOL...
Wasted a good prospect, a good career, a stable pay, a happy environment, ideal location....
and wasted money on studying UOL as i fare badly and quitted sch...
I hope better jobs out there for me to apply...
*cross fingers*
Don't ever take our daily activities for granted..
You won't know what will happen the next day..
从那时的意外到现在快一个星期了..
幸好那时的意外, 我没有事情.. 只是脚伤痕累累..
feet will leave a scar thou..
很庆幸不是我的脸..
这个事件让我觉得性命与死亡只是一线之差..
要好好的珍惜生命与身边的人, 不要把每一件事, 人, 感情, 友情, 爱情当是理所当然的...
Don't live life with regrets too...
到今日, 我的脚也比较好了, 但是还一拐一拐, 站的时候也只能用右脚来平衡..
希望我能快点康复...
那时, 爸爸帮我包扎伤口的时候, 让我想起以前你受伤了脚..
我慢慢地扶你回家.. 帮你扶了药, 包扎你的脚...
那种感觉还深深的埋在我心里....
真希望有你一句慰问的话, 但这是不可能的事了...
从那么密切的我们, 变成好像陌生人..
我看, 这是我最遗憾的事情吧.. 不能与你成为朋友的关系..
希望你是幸福的... 现在根本不知道你的消息了..
没有照片, 没有网际网络的联系..
也不敢传简讯给你.. 只有一些日子才鼓起勇气传给你..
希望你们开开心心, 幸福 .. :)
- Mood:thoughts
the most ridiculous day and 'accident' in my whole life till now!
1st, during work felt a little wei qu.. but nothing much aso.. cuz this colleague was not scolding me anyway.. just felt so yuan wang... i seriously hope i can find a new job soon.
finally.. end work lo! thought so nice, helped mum with the dishes, and nap den wake up do assignments.. but this incident just spoilt my whole plan..
was moving from the back seat to the front seat.. i don't know why my this colleague of mine, never see me or wat.. nv even notice the car's door is not closed?! he can just drive off...? :( my right leg was in the car only, my left leg is still hanging outside of the car.. and next the best thing happen... he just drive off... my whole left leg skid on the floor.. burning sensation... my skin on top of my feet came off.. tears just kept flowing.. :'( luckily... he stopped after i shouted for him! he's hard of hearing, i dun blame him.. and also luckily, i was holding the car top at least i can support myself, or else, i think i will fell back and knocked by vehicles behind?
I stil think is dangerous for a person who is hard of hearing to drive... this is not the first time he drive something happen to a person, he told me that this thing had happened to the wife too.. I was super terrified seriously.. thou i still can joke around after came back from hospital.. my parents and er ge was quite furious after listening... but at least i m safe and sound.. so :) Parents start to joke and laugh after that, somehow distract me from my after accident's shock.. they still care and worry thou..
Seriously, at that instance, i was really taken aback... I would not react fast to faster put my left leg in the car.. I was thinking what if he didnt stop the car, cuz he was driving quite fast actually like near 100km..
Safe and sound.. :) Blessed.. think had frightened my er ge from my crying after i reached home.. thanks and sorry gor gor...
my injured trotter leg. ha!
the burning sensation is killing me :(
- Mood:
sad
Term 1 has been tough for me in school.. However, I am grateful that my lessons are only 2 continuously weeks per 3 months.. Its tiring, its draining.. I am glad there are a few people been encouraging and motivating me.. been understanding n worry abt my health here n there. Mum is there cooking nice food for me, brew soup give me and bird nest too.. Dad is there silently encouraging me too.. I knows it deep in my heart. Thanks all! I truly appreciate that.. Short heart-warming words just sweeten my heart and gives me the strength to carry on
Been having late nights since school starts, rush of assignments and studies..
Was a lil disappointed with HRM’s MA and Exam.. Somemore i major in HR! LOLS. But it’s okays.. I think I must give myself a pat on my shoulder and tell myself I have done my best and its a good job aldy! :)
Overall an estimation grade and GPA, i still manage to get my 2nd lower class.. just need put a bit more effort I can go to 2nd upper ;) Jia you! I hope I will keep it up and maintain the lowest grade at C the most!! I can DO IT!
Somehow this period of time makes me realise a lot of things.. Who’s there constantly there for me.. understands me… each stage of life really see how many true friends just accompany you throughout..
- Mood: cheerful
16.02.2011
Its a nice day.. first day of CCM module and ends at 9+ :) weets!
Went OG to find mum and dad... bought lots of things.. mostly for my grandparents thou. Hope they love them. I bought some facial stuffs and finally a bag! My previous bag really cui-ed already.. THanks Dad!! :) First time bought a bag for me.. He insisted not to take money from me.. hehes.. <3
17.03.2011
Happy birthday darling! :) A short and nice lunch.. hope you like the mini 'cake' celebration. HA! Rush to interview after that.. It's not something I want in HR.. thus a waste of time again... Tiring to rush 5 places in a day! A sign of aging.
18.03.2011
The thought of going to work.....
Each day got to think of my lunch...
Just got to endure each day...
Hope to learn as much as I can at the meantime..
20.03.2011
Last day of lesson for term 2! Fast fast... :) left 1 year 1 mth to go and I am going to graduate!! I can't wait...
I wanna visit Bran in UK... Trying to save as much as I can this year.. :)
Feeling super sick this day...
Flu 2nd time in this month already...
wat happen? lack of slp, sensitive to air con, monthly problem... just cant come!
Rush of assignments upahead.... Trying to finish one of them next sunday :)
This term should be quite okay.. just that lots of theories to rmb. Hope to aim at least a B for both ...
Sunday (13.03.2011)
Was listless the whole day.. mayb just recover from my flu.. I am so dead... not yet done my wed's submission of assignment :X
Heart wrenching.. looking at disasters one after one..
Japan's quake and tsunami.. den indonesia volcano erupts..
Watched the charity show today.. being like us, normal people will never ever knows the pain and how a disabled person need plenty of effort to lift up a thing or do any simple things.. For us, a slight pain here and there, a slight sick.. we felt 无力了.. MC = cannot do anything le.. a little setback we felt helpless.. but for them, 他们很坚强的活着.. 很乐观的活着.. 我真的很惭愧..
我真的需要向他们多多学习, 乐观的面对生活, 更珍惜身边的人.. 真的几时什么不幸的事情降临在你自己的身上, 你也不会知道..
Saw one case of a guy.. He was having fever, went to see doctor came home to rest and next morning motionless... and next minute, he can't move already.. somehow hard to walk, can't speak.
我真的庆幸那时候的发烧, 我没有事情.. 只是有一点烧了头脑, 那时的我, 真的以为我会死掉.. 康复过后, 头脑真的有点慢了下来.. 现在的我, 有点或要发烧时, 我的头会很疼痛... 现在的我, 很怕生病.. especially fever and sore throat.. because if i have sore throat, my tonsilities might reoccur and i might have to go surgery..
Since young, health is never good for me.. asthma>headache>gastric and digestion problems>fever each year>period problems..
one after another... chinese doc had said I can't slim down so fast and much too cuz of my poor health... I need to yang hao before I can really slim down at a slow pace.. after next year of my graduation, I really wanna hao hao de diao my body.. plenty rest and exercise.. and for my back... might go for physio... i just need study and work hard now.. hope to earn more next time to have plenty for myself to diao my body, provide a better life for my parents and for my future =) I really hope my parents can have a good life... I seriously can't wait to graduate and work all the way... At least I can give them allowances.. wkends i can do odd jobs or wat, just to earn that extra money, I wouldn't mind :)
Mum, Dad i love u.. I hope I can take away all the pain from your the body.. and I pray really good health for your. I will save as much as I can.. be thrifty as possible.. to bring your enjoy life.. :)
Saturday (12.03.2011)
Whole day in lesson... seriously for this module of MO totally like dunno what I am learning about... but i don't blame this replacement lecturer because he had a very short notice for teaching our class.. as for our designated lecturer, his condition is serious from heart attack.. wish he will soon recover..
Went IT show =) weets... went to eat cafe cartel first, wah.. price is just going up and up! we both felt not worth the money.. should have really just settle for budget! however, its okay... been long time since we have a dinner together =) enjoyable.. after which, rushed to IT fair! woots! many many people.. somehow both of us dun like crowds now! wahahah.. old liao.. dun like to squeeze.. haha.. but anyway my best buddy got what he wants... haha! super happy and excited about it.. awwws.s.. my target on the camera I wanted is still so ex!!! Drop the idea in buying.. Reached home...
Me: DAD! 40" our fav. samsung led HD TV was only $999!!
Dad: But I want a 46"!!
Me: But 46" usual price was $2199.. now is about $1699 still.. Still ex!!
Me & Dad: Shall wait for price to go down!
wahha.. the two crazy dragons... just love to wait price to drop so its more worth the money =)
Me: Dad! the camera S95 I want is still EXpensive!! $649..
Dad: wow! thats ex! how about other canon camera?
Me: I want S95! But the new camera ixus 220HS is cheap la! $399 only.. super slim! the red is nice! other powershot camers are cheap too! barely 200 - 300!!
Dad: I don't mind buy you the $399 camera.. or the other two powershot cameras..
Mum: Dad says dun mind fork out $400, i fork out $249 if you want...
Me: Don't want! so ex..
Dad: You don't know your girl mehxx... won't buy such a expensive stuff!
Dad, mum just love and understand me soo much! :) LOVES <3
Guess what I need now is a bag first! wahhaha.. the skin is peeling off from my bag.. i need a shopping :) guess after my exam shall go and see..
Friday (11.03.2011)
Was having bad flu in the morning.. until my colleagues thought I am crying.. as tears are flowing and eyes were a little swollen.. Colleagues all asked me to see a doctor and rest at home.. Its been a long time since I took MC? haha.. went to see a doc, was feeling very terribly, tired and sick that day... after which, went to eat fish soup at JP, took medicine and slp at home.. and night rush out to lessons.. A call to go for interview next week.. Somehow, feeling sick-ed to go for interviews, repeating the same answers over and over again... But yet... I can't wait to change job seriously.. No drive, no motivation, no mood to work at there... Dreadful...
- Wish me lucks next week -
I just want a better company, a better pay than now, a better location and food.. somewhere accessible..
so much things to write..
but at this point of time, i'm drained.. never had a gd sleep last night..
shall cont. this again =)
